rather sick, but…
the world doesn’t simply stop for me to rest! learning continues at an incredible rate at the band convention and also with my materials and conducting lessons. i’m really happy to be at the convention, seeing other band instructors attend the same sessions, learn the same things, and ideally applying the things we learn into our band programs. at the same time, i’m rather miserably sick, and i know being so busy with learning now isn’t really helping my health much. but i can’t stop now! because i’m at the heart of it all, and the pace just keeps me going.
besides, my passion doesn’t allow me to come to a standstill 
well, but there are of course trade-offs. i remember the time when dear was busy and i was rather free; i had to deal with it! now she’s dealing with it and i feel rather bad. but i know i mustn’t lose my grip on learning new stuff about conducting every day, so i really have to compromise a bit. sorry dear! i know it’s tough for you, because i’ve gone through this with you before. but it’ll get better!
but i must say that things are really going on very well; i have Mr Png’s fullest blessings for my success in the scene, many people’s sincere offers to help and also good conducting lessons and very good conducting opportunities. i’m really lucky to have all these now!
and it’s official; i’ve been appointed Assistant Conductor of NUSWS! a huge huge learning platform, and a chance for me to work with a band i have grown to love! i really look forward to working with you guys at NUSWS man. do let me know how i can improve!
you know, frankly, i’m supposed to be very happy. i am. but it’s kinda mixed right now. and i’m really on the verge of breaking down while jumping for joy. this doesn’t make sense to you, i guess, but that’s the best way i can describe how i feel right now. i guess. language is kind of deserting me. i feel on top of the world having all those opportunities; at the same time, i feel like i’m separating the clouds (no lame jokes about cloud please) from the earth like Pan Gu and Atlas? it gets discouraging. even though so many people are encouraging me and cheering me on.
but i have to be strong. and i have to get well. being sick at this point of time is a real torture. how to be ultra positive and be at your best in learning when your health is a piece of mess? i blame myself for not taking good care of my health last week. now my body’s exacting revenge on me. it’s like borrowing in instalments and then having to pay everything back one shot. it ain’t funny man…
i hope i solve my problems soon! and stop wanting to break down.
