MusICian

ok, i’m finally blogging. yes, i was lazy! but i deserved to be lazy, after a few months of madness. i’m sure most ppl know why i say this!

alright, exams are officially over (as of 30/4/2007) and in about a month’s time i’ll know if i do get to graduate this semester. well, to be honest, i’m not confident of failing any module, so i guess i should be fine! the funny thing though is that i’m gonna miss my commencement, since the italy trip is gonna stretch all the way till 14th july. even if i don’t extend the trip, i’d be coming back on either 7th or 8th, and those are the commencement ceremony dates for the FASS ppl! so… unless i go straight to NUS after i get out of the airport…

alright, this feels like clearing leave during my NS days. no need to go back to camp until i collect my pink IC. same thing, no need to go back to NUS till i go collect my degree scroll. funny feeling! because i feel neither here nor there; perhaps during my final few semesters, school wasn’t that big a part of my life.

sharks, i just screwed up a packet of instant mashed potatoes… now it’s more like potato soup =.-

italy trip’s gonna be interesting, and so will the trip extension. we’re gonna return from stockholm! that’s pretty far away from italy leh… but better than not extending. stupid airlines… so anyway, stockholm, sweden. that means we’d probably have to pass through germany (yay!!!) and austria. ok maybe not austria. but well. still gonna travel quite far. and of course we must have the time to travel! if not we’d just be taking a slow trip up to sweden from italy and won’t enjoy the sights much

one thing for sure: i’m gonna love this trip! gonna travel with huili and the hai sing alumni family; daniel, xinhui, erina, cedric. cool!!!

BUT. i’d probably have to prepare more money lah. haha.

read a few blogs and i must say, i’m rather surprised, appalled, comforted and yet disappointed at the same time. firstly, banditz blog. i felt that whoever came in to tag wasn’t friendly at all, and his/her sniggering remarks left many members cursing in his wake. this showed me that they were united against an outside source, but at the same time, showed me that they weren’t calm enough dealing with this situation. i can’t blame them though; the tagger really did provoke them. but i guess we do have to learn not to be provoked. in this way, the provoker will waste his/her time and energy.

but well, good that you guys stand up for yourselves! but next time do it in a more civilised manner

saw another disturbing post. about P, L and A. first of all, i was shocked to see it. then i was immensely disappointed. because after all these things, i really didn’t expect someone to blog this kinda thing, and especially not from someone like him/her. P did many things for you guys, things that you cannot see or hear, but things that i’m sure you can feel. L wasn’t the only person who sacrificed. nothing would have worked out if not for P. instead of giving some amount of trust like P and L gave him/her, there was suspicion. and about something that A said too. how funny… why couldn’t it be that P lied to A? and for that matter, P will NOT lie to NCWO.

i’m disappointed because he/she is bringing people to the wrong direction. what are lies? lies are some utterances that you percieve not to be true. one thing for sure, life isn’t as straightforward as we all think. to survive in the band scene you cannot say the wrong things, despite your own opinions. that’s why i decided to keep my mouth shut at appropriate times. don’t think P had much of a choice, though. P is more involved in the band scene than you can ever imagine.

i’m disappointed. after a number of occassions, and i thought i’d see a change. i tried to guide you. but i can’t help it if you think P and L are trying to decieve you and the rest. such strong words; decieve, fool, ‘motivate’. if P and L do not care, they would have left. because it wasn’t easy with NC and it was never meant to be easy. and surprisingly things are not made better by things like these. L’s mistake, perhaps; L was too trusting? L’s hurt, that’s for sure.

if only… we would all look within ourselves, and put ourselves to the test. instead of looking at others and always seeing the negative side of things. that’s how i hung on to the belief; does it matter what other schools have got? we did our best, we definitely gave our all. i know i did. i know many of you did. but if we didn’t, are we in the position to criticise others? or judge others for that matter? a true musician and a true band member would really reflect on that. and not just blaming the world for things that don’t go right.

ok, i’m sorry if i spoilt some moods. i just had to say these things; don’t want to see anyone else heading the wrong direction. if you don’t like it, i’d not say another word; if you don’t like it, i’ll give up my job. but don’t do this kinda things anymore. for your own sake.

don’t bite the hand that has been feeding you.

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