ARGH.
i really should complain to friendster. the blog sometimes cannot be updated, and it doesn’t allow me to retain whatever i’ve typed when some error occurs. and my internet connection is killing me.
anyway, SYF 2007 is finally over for NCWO. we got a silver, and according to many, a silver with honours. haha. but i have to say, NCWO played well, and rock the hall we sure did! there must be some things the judges spotted that we did not, and judging by the other results of the competition, we got a fair and well-deserved silver. too bad they did not include our ‘honours’!
this year the standard has been raised quite a lot, and many band scene giants suffered. so far only one gold with honours. scary! we can’t complain. 2 years ago, medals were too freely given. my theory can’t be too wrong, i guess!
i do have to say, NCWO, regardless of the result, we are all proud of you. you have really given your very best, and nothing but the very best, and we appreciate that. let your tears flow but not too long. we really did do very well! and i wasn’t lying when i said i was nearly moved to tears; only pride and consciousness stopped me 
and after such a long journey, i realised that i’m worn out. seriously worn out. couldn’t really teach fengshan with my fullest zest today. and i have also been trying to stay strong for everyone. it isn’t easy, i must say, and i’ve been hurt by many unfortunate things that have happened. frankly, i don’t know how i managed to hold up my smile on the podium while conducting NUSWS this morning. i am not happy, and it isn’t easy (cloud, does this feels familiar…?). i have to take on the role of boss many times, in charge of many things i have no clear instructions to. i had to conduct a band who didn’t watch me too much this morning, (though it isn’t really their fault) and still smile even though i’m rather heartbroken inside.
mr leonard tan is right. the toughest part of the job is to handle heartbreaks. when your kids think that they have failed to deliver. it really breaks my heart too. for this SYF, i have given all that i know possible. i know the result is unavoidable, but somehow the result spelt trouble for me. i’m not happy. whatever that i have lacked in expertise, i have always replaced with extra commitment and dedication. in terms of music, and how the students respond to me, it has been fantastic, i must say. somehow my limited knowledge and expertise got them somewhere, and with that, i am pleased. but i’m still unhappy nonetheless.
but i shouldn’t allow this to affect NCWO. you guys maintain your high spirits, and heal those who are still feeling down! i will be ok. as usual. i just need some time to come to terms with my current situation. and also to come to terms with myself. right now i’m just one super confused soul. but i refuse to give up searching for that glimpse of hope within myself!
just give me strenght.
April 12th, 2007 at 10:09 am
i think u just need a well deserved rest… hang on for now! =)
April 12th, 2007 at 2:00 pm
i did watch u most of the time.. cuz my rythmn sux?
April 12th, 2007 at 5:57 pm
Don’t blog on friendster then.. :p
I think it is not easy to play an under-rehearsed piece and watch at the same time. So don’t be too sad about it. I know I did watch. Especially Abba.
Haha.. Except the time when I’m so super tired I just closed my eyes and play.
For NCWO, I think they did very well. Like I said, I think they are almost as good as HCI. HCI is just that bit better. Therefore, don’t be too sad of the results. I felt that the medals given out were fair.
As for now, just go and get some rest. I think you deserve it. After getting a good rest, then you can think about what you need to think about.
April 13th, 2007 at 6:33 am
dun worry… u did a great job teaching them.. as well as mr png
7th night of july is splendid… me and some others also think that’s the best 7th night we ever heard… nice job 
April 13th, 2007 at 6:34 am
NCWO u all are the best
jia you ppl 
i miss playing with u all man… haha
April 13th, 2007 at 6:44 am
haha . i was crying when i read some parts of ur post .
yup . we really did well .
if the standard had never been raise, we WILL get gold !
quite a sad thing lahs .
adn our 7th night is the BEST 7th night EVER !!!
April 15th, 2007 at 6:18 am
NCWO.. u all did well..i heard yr recording..7th night of july was well played..best of all..u all show great improvement and i’m proud of u guys..:)
ncwo..continue to work hard..i’m sure u all can do it..mr lum and mr png..gd job..
jia you everybody!
April 15th, 2007 at 6:26 am
yr blog got problem ar?send the comment but not shown..now retype again..lolx..
ncwo..u all did well..i heard yr recording and i am sure tt that is the best 7th night u all had played..this year the judging was strict but u all still attain u silver..i’m proud of u guys..continue to work hard..i believe u all can do it..
mr lum and mr png..great job..continue to help this band…i believe ur can do it de..
everybody, JIAYOU!