MusICian

a couple of days ago, my diploma appointment from ABRSM finally came; i’ll be re-taking my quick studies (failed only by 2 marks…) on 7th may, the day after i watch Phantom! haha. not an issue, the appointment is in the afternoon, so i can wake up late!

a big change in moods these two days. and also stress levels. a very lengthy discussion on interpretation induced a whole load of stress upon my shoulders; i shoulder the damage done to the ensemble, the distance they felt from mr png was enough to destroy all ensemble chemistry. i was over-zealous on my part, wanting to tidy up parts and create ensemble awareness. i did create ensemble awareness, till the point that they almost only respond to me. that was really damaging, and i felt the full effects from last night’s and today’s rehearsals. it was seriously a huge dilemma on my part, and i must say i didn’t exactly handle it in the best way. because i was so automated that i started making decisions my way.

well, we ironed out this issue, and by the end of music exchange today, things were sorted out and negative feelings were more or less resolved. i busied myself with the emcee job, being ‘arrowed’ to do it (haha), and i took the task seriously, trying to assure that the visiting schools have a good time under our hosting. everything went smoothly, except for little glitches in my speeches, and everyone went back to their schools having enjoyed the music exchange. or so i hope. my debut emceeing! so many debuts this year. i suddenly remembered this old ad’s slogan: when was the last time you tried something for the first time? i certainly achieved much this year. haha!

i realised now that being number 2 isn’t as carefree a job as i thought. and being number 2, i have a different set of stress, and a very different scope of duty. no doubt i have had very established musicians and band directors alike commending me for my capability, but i should always remember that i am number 2. i know i don’t have anything to prove to anyone anymore, though! that itself is assuring enough for me. from now on, i shall always aim to outdo myself, for my own sake. and never step over the boundaries of number 2! just like the good old days

SYF is just around the corner. NCWO sounded good today. i guess they really did make home advantage count! and also, the ensemble awareness was good, except that at one point, everyone was so afraid to stick out that they became very safe. the second session was much better, with a couple more intonation mistakes, but a lot more expression. i was at least comforted in knowing that they still can follow mr png! and they should, because mr png has enough expertise and experience to really bring them to glory. i will definitely be fighting alongside, never giving up.

we will bring glory to the school, and most importantly, glory to ourselves

go for GOLD! with honours

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