the heart is greedy
i know i shouldn’t. but well, i really wish i could spend more time with her. or rather, i really wish she could spend more time with me. but hey, this is just being very selfish. sweetie’s got a great job offer and she really should go for it, and here i am, wishing that she’d have more time to spend with me. love isn’t about having someone all the time. it’s about letting that someone be happy. and i know that she’ll be happy with this fantastic new job she’s got. so i shall be good and take care of myself. and not be so greedy! after all, i know that she loves me, and that really is enough; i can’t ask for more than that!
maybe i just wanna spend more time with her before she becomes way too busy?
argh. stop giving myself excuses. my heart’s so greedy that it’ll never be satisfied! so, yup. i shall give her all my good luck, and make sure i take care of her whenever i can! cos it’ll be so busy for her and i don’t wish to see her fall sick or become stressed up! so, yup, i’ll take care of sweetie.
i actually feel good trying out that solo part for capricious aloysious. although i’ve never ever seen the score, from listening to it so many times, i’d know roughly what notes to play. and according to the soloist whose recording i referred to, i got it 95% right! haha. and i kinda like how i sound these days. maybe it’s time i tried it out with mus’art. ha. well, i dunno. shan’t get too cocky about it. after all, i know where i stand now. just hope that the results of my diploma will justify that.
just give me a pass… and i’ll be satisfied.
ok, i’ve gone on for too long. better go sleep soon. try to make it for pasir ris band prac tmr and then go visit my dad. quite disappointed that the date’s been cancelled… was really looking forward to it! airport, east coast… sigh… i’ll miss those places. i’ll miss going those places with sweetie.
must’ve said too much. sleep!
