focus, focus, focus
i’m conducting like shit again. cannot stay focused. i feel like shouting out right now, right in the middle of the night. puked again today and it was much worse than yesterday. and i miss her like crazy.
i really really love her… i’ll do anything to make her happy. just take away her pain and give it all to me…
i pray that in the face of adversity, we will survive this ordeal. please bless us with courage. and bless us with strength and will power. and please, please take her pain away…
