clarinet exams brought forward…
sharks. they sent me the letter late and informed me that my exam was earlier. what a stupid thing to do. now i have no choice but to take the diploma much earlier than i wanted. i have only 2 1/2 weeks left, can you believe it! and i’m not really prepared for it. i don’t even have a proper clarinet for it now. i hope mus’art’s prestige will be a suitable one. i remembered having problems with the prestige back then when i first tried it (almost a year ago).
been rather hot tempered, despite good news coming my way. i don’t understand! why is there surely something that will turn my mood upside down? i had to yell at the nan chiau recruits yesterday. again. always have to make me do this before they behave themselves. and my bro who, first thing he does when i reached home, yelled rudely at my mom. that was it. i yelled at him. and then i couldn’t be bothered and i went to sleep soon after.
somehow i’m just very hot tempered these days. why? i don’t understand this. perhaps i don’t understand why there must always be something that will piss me off. and somehow i couldn’t be easily cheered up also. must’ve caused some stress to my dear. i hope i can be much stronger than this.
ok, fengshan band competition next next week. my clarinet exam the following week. and also my university exams starting next next week. this is a stressful period. i only hope my family can be more understanding… and perhaps stop bothering me with more things. it’s not as if i haven’t done my part for the family. just hope that we can be more sensible. that everyone wants the home to be a better place. otherwise there shouldn’t be any reason why i’d wanna come home, since it’s such a torture.
