MusICian

frankly, it really ain’t easy at all coping with all the teaching and the studying. i barely have time for myself. i teach band 3 days in a week, teach the clarinet for 1 hour every week, have band practices 2 times a week, have readings for 3 of my modules every single week, have assignments for the other 2 modules every single week too. i get home exhausted every tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday.

of course the good part is that i earn about $360 every week (i need the money to start my savings). the bad part is that i have a lot less time for myself, for soccer and for huili. if she weren’t also in mus’art, i basically won’t have much time to meet up with her. these days i’ve been thinking whether all of these are worth it. i love teaching, i love music. but it’s really tiring trying to juggle all these with my studies. days pass by so quickly that i don’t even notice what happens around my house.

the worse part is that i tend to get grouchy easily these days. maybe i’m becoming selfish, expecting that everyone understands the situation i’m in. but i must always remember that these aren’t reasons or excuses for me to take it out on others. however busy i might be, i must never take anyone for granted. especially my special her. she’s been really accomodating and caring. and she gives me all the support i need.

i hereby apologise for being grouchy about the instant noodles incident yesterday.

i have a fairly good time at band practices. i kinda enjoy my job at fengshan primary, but teaching at nan chiau can be extremely stressful. fair enough, i’m supposed to be enjoying my life. but why am i so exhausted? what’s making me so tired? now that everything seems to be going the right way, why do i feel so exhausted?

maybe it’s just me. or maybe it’s just human to keep demanding more out of life. looks like man is never satisfied. or maybe i simply haven’t done any reflection on my achievements. i should.

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