MusICian

ok, now my whole room looks very blue. finally got that door painted with a few ugly patches… and unfortunately, it’s the front that’s painted badly. finally scrubbed that filthy floor of my room, cleared up loads and loads of mess, and threw away many memories. thoroughly emptied my heart out to totally absorb another. haha. now my room looks a little different. visually, i’m already enjoying the fruits of my labour. it’s been at least 7 hours! i’d better feel the sense of accomplishment.

finally get a good day at home! although i didn’t rest much (cos of the abovementioned manual labour), my mind was relaxed enough. relaxed enough to look back on the past 3 weeks and congratulate myself for jobs well done. my successful presentations, my successful percussion tutoring, my recruit training, my hard work in school, my fruitful band practices etc… i’ve done a lot! and i never thought i’d have such a great birthday this year. despite many friends forgetting about it (either deliberately or accidentally).

recieved great presents… birthday smses from some friends, 2 shirts from ruixiang, nick and gang, 1 shirt from best buddy josh, jingying and carrie, and 1 dancing hamster from hongliang. of course, Perhaps Love CD and a big, beautifully framed jigsaw puzzle depicting 2 hamsters from my special her, huili! yes, we are official. and very happy

chinese new year’s gonna be as usual, i’d guess. hope i’ll have loads of ang pao money, can start saving them up for a clarinet! or get good accessories. and a great v-day gift. just hope to get lotsa money. haha. ya, i AM that practical when it comes to chinese new year

thanks to my buddies, i don’t have to buy any new year clothes. but i think i’d still wanna get 1 or 2 new shirts or jeans for myself. haha. depends on whether i have time to actually shop around for them!

ok, time for dinner.

it’s official…

we’re official

i didn’t expect my first week of school to be lined up with so much stuff! readings upon readings upon readings… band prac upon band prac upon band prac… and a performance on my favourite mus’art sunday. and i’m starting to regret having such early timings for my lessons. so packed! 2 presentations this week. gotta buy my morphology and syntax text, gotta print my notes, gotta do all my readings (which are simply crazy) every week. think i better spend less time on the computer.

will start tutoring this week. and i’ve got some training today.

hopefully band concert preperations won’t be that bad. and of course i’ve gotta prac for my clarinet exam too. so many things to do… so little time… but i can do it. i must do it. all these while i have the energy. i don’t wanna look back and regret i didn’t do something. and i must make it for the thailand trip! it’s gonna be my very last chance for the competition. because i’d be too old next year. i already feel too old… but still… life goes on day by day. make the best out of it! with music in my life, nothing can be that bad anymore

alright, i have 2 confirmed good news for myself! i’m going to tutor a secondary school band and a primary school band! that means good income for me, at least $120 more a week on top of what i’ll earn teaching clarinet and english! that means i won’t have to worry about survival for a while. but i’ll have to worry about travelling and studies for sure. well, u gain some, u lose some!

let’s say $480 a month for tutoring band. plus my english tutoring… that’s $720 a month. with clarinet tutoring it’ll be $860 a month. wow. but where am i going to find time to do all these??? ok, let’s see… wed afternoon for one band, friday afternoon for another band, tuesday evenings for clarinet lessons with fiona, wed and friday evenings for english lessons with simon? i think i’ll overwork. i might rethink english tuition. band tutoring is something i definitely won’t wanna miss!

i’ve gotta plan carefully… real carefully…

就像山风吹不落雨的夏天
你的心沉入迷蒙深渊
就像春雷敲不醒的一个梦
她的爱无缘无故离开

心情坏只发呆
你的难过不会有人睬
路很长站起来
或许远方同样有谁在等待
你的爱

for you
my dear friends
i’ll be always on your side
当你很想远离痛苦
寻找爱

with you
越过高山和大海
勇敢面对危险
(we’re)on the road again

wasted trip, wasted time, wasted money. the lesson today was totally unproductive. did a bit of the finzi pieces, but no real progress made. didn’t practise enough mozart so doing mozart would be a waste of time anyway. having mild flu and it affected my playing a lot. couldn’t concentrate properly too. i think i just wasted 2 hours at my teacher’s place. i don’t call that learning, since i couldn’t even absorb anything in the first place.

recording for kah chun was equally unproductive, since i had trouble sightreading stuff and i also had problems with my contact lenses. i was virtually falling asleep the whole time! and i was constantly hungry. $24 left till tuesday. hopefully it lasts till later than that.

anyway, it’s been a day of bad playing and bad concentration. i should get some good rest. tmr will be another practice day.

about time i updated this thing!

oh well, i opened this page almost 2 hours ago. but i haven’t managed to type anything much cos of msn and all the nitty gritty CORS stuff. i think i’m finally going to tutor band again! i need the income, and definitely the experience too. and i’ll be under my teacher! at least i kind of know his style and i’ll naturally know how to help him. now’s getting that singpass password and i’ll be ok. getting this extra income means spending extra time working, but i can’t help it! i’ll have to do this. right now i’m living from hand to mouth; i really wanna have some savings!

alright, 2006 has just started! don’t wanna begin the year with a heavy heart. some resolutions, perhaps! i definitely wanna improve as a performing and teaching clarinetist. and try that first solo piece. most probably capricious aloysious! at least it’s manageable and it’s a pleasant sounding one. i’ll make the audience enjoy. that’s number one. of course, i must get my very first music diploma! will work hard for that one, that’s a sure thing! that’s number two. number three will definitely be pulling up my socks for the coming semester. about time i got better results!

and above everything else mentioned above (haha), treating all my friends well, with a sincere heart.

and the one most important thing for 2006: fixing up my love life. i have no wish to keep bumming and flirting around, not that i like to flirt; neither am i good at it anyway. it’s time to fix it. to settle down mentally with someone i love. not gonna tell if i found her already!

that’s it for now. oh, and JB was really fun! food’s great and CHEAP. but the clothes… argh.