tired of all these nonsense
ok, haven’t been very responsible this week. missed 2 evening practices. but i really needed to relax and relief stress. these days heaven haven’t exactly been very merciful with me. had to get stuck with so many problems that i can never seem to solve. deal with all the childish people around me. all those sleepless nights, too. i really wonder when this is going to stop. i really really need to just let go and forget about everything. forget about all my unhappiness and lead my life the way i want; and not just let myself be manipulated by other people again. i am supposed to be in control of my own life. after all, it belongs to me.
should i hate someone? hate is a very terrible thing. hatred doesn’t exist in my moral code. and i really cannot bring myself to hate anyone, no matter what he/she did. am i too kind? maybe i should just be more cruel about stuff. be a heartless creep. maybe i should.
