MusICian

hmmm, not sure if it’s a good thing. i’m switching over from 3rd clarinet to bass clarinet. sure missed the old days in central band when i first took up the bass clarinet. from the days of the lau pok broken down bass clarinet that was almost beyond repair, to the newer one with millions of alignment problems; i managed to cope after all! haha. those were the days of the crappy lower woodwinds. junwen the diplomat, lu hui the vulgar little boy (violent too), jordan the epitome of lameness and julian the mambo guy. haha. those days were fun! of course, trying to cope with what i have was a huge challenge, but they sure made my days a lot easier!

playing in a clarinet ensemble this friday. quite apprehensive about this one. haven’t been able to hear the 2nd clarinets. one huge missing chunk! oh well, will just play my best. started a little planning on the trip. still unsure if i’ll be dropping by england, but i sure hope to! i do wanna travel as much as i can this time. take millions of pictures as memento! performing with NUSSO in aberdeen on 3rd august. quite a rush! should be flying over from amsterdam on 1st or 2nd. i must make time for the practices! and also try and earn enough money to go. sharks, i don’t think event gurus are going to pay me in time for the trip. argh.

should i take up the job at gelare? as a long term plan?

alright, maybe the hint was WAY too obvious. haha. it still ain’t that easy, ok? i had to filter off the possibilities one by one. but i think i was being way too blatant! am i really that obvious? ok, i think i meant it to be obvious. i really hope there isn’t any misunderstanding between us. about time i settled it.

they’re different. i’ve come to terms with that. they are not the same. they have different qualities altogether, and i really don’t wish to make a comparison. it ain’t about the past anymore. it ain’t about coming back from the dead. two seperate issues altogether! i’ve really come to terms with all that. now it’s time i make things known, make things clear to the other party.

this is incredible. i’ve never felt like this before. really.

yeah. recieved the goods i ordered from USA. finally.

in case u’re wondering, it’s a clarinet soft carry case, an exquisite thumbrest and a few hand select reeds for my own use. thank you. i have yet to buy the C clarinet, but i guess that will have to wait. these few items already cost me a whopping $140. luckily i have my salary from elsewhere to cover for all these expenditure.

my new gadgets are cool

finally, after one whole morning of nothingness, the director fired me. seems like he can’t find anything for me to do since he dismissed me from teaching. one more dream shattered. and now i have to source for another $600 to cover what i was supposed to get for this job. pray that i can keep that $150 i earned intact. and also what’s left of my dignity. another $1850 to go with 1 1/2 months left.

damn prejudice. i really love teaching! what makes them think an asian would be less willing or even less qualified to teach? i refuse to let my WMC dream be shattered too. i MUST find a job. i MUST earn the money myself. i don’t want to borrow! i don’t believe that i’ll be THAT unlucky.

just because i’m not caucasian. just because i’m not a ‘native’ speaker of the language. why i even had complaints about me not ‘looking’ the part. lost my teaching job right on the very first day i finally became an english teacher. screw conventions. screw prejudice. just because i’m not european doesn’t make me any less qualified.

well done. now i’m re-employed as an overpaid general coordinator who has to follow the real teachers around like fleas and watch over the children like a sheep dog. the only good thing is that i get to learn how the teachers handle their classes. that’s better than nothing, right? right. just tell me how am i going to swallow my pride and go about coordinating the children as if i never had the opportunity to teach them myself? haiz. what a joke life just played on me.

nothing beats having a good chat with good friends. nothing beats having a good time with good friends! the only surprise is that chanel paid for the drinks. $88. she must be rich or something. the things eng thai said really made sense. when we fall, we should always pick ourselves up and continue walking. there might be times when we fall and stop for a rest, but we should never stop walking forever. i agree with him completely. life’s full of challenges. tests. we may face hardship, but we should never crumble in the face of adversity. i should move on, and not dwell on the facts that life’s been unfair to me. there are simply too many things that are waiting for me to achieve. i’m gonna do it. i’m gonna make it.

tiring balls!

finally bought the windbreaker of my dreams ($29.90 reebok windbreaker, black, XS)! shiok. finally something MY size. tired of wearing oversized windbreakers! this windbreaker rocks! and it’s probably the last XS piece in the whole island. haha. and i found it at royal sporting house at anchorpoint! what a fantastic bargain.

went swimming at jurong east swimming complex. that place is still damn happening man! after so many years, i think it’s still one of the coolest places in singapore! the current pool is damn nice to slack in, the wave pool is super fun (and also bigger than wild wild wet’s) and the slides are simply awesome. cheap version of wild wild wet. haha. minus lots of babes though… bak kut teh at jurong east was damn good. too bad it’s the spicy version, otherwise i’d have downed all the soup down to the last drop!

band was fun. sight reading proved to be a challenge after so much swimming and playing. grogginess creeped in during band practice and i was surprised i could still stay awake! so many things i need to practice. we have so few people! at this rate i doubt i’d ever go back to 1st clarinet. i think the 2nd clarinets need me more. cloud and steph can take care of themselves in front. haha. i’ll slack at 2nd for once. though i AM very tempted to have a go at utopia’s clarinet solo.

stomach growling again. what’s up with my appetite today? strangely good. i think i’ll have a little snack before i concuss later. sights fixed on WMC. soft case and exotic thumbrest coming next week. along with many many reeds. alright man!