MusICian

things are looking great right now! i’m going to get my first trial lesson with my very first clarinet student (a swiss, i think) and i’m getting an interview for a teaching position in SHINES private school! and i’m on my way to joining UAN! AND i’m also looking at WMC with mus’art wind symphony! alright. if i get the jobs, they’ll solve at least 70% of my money worries. finally my certs can be put into good use! i’ve never doubted that learning music and the clarinet would be in vain. i’ve never doubted the TESOL cert that i’ve worked hard for is for nothing. now that i’m able to use them almost at the same time, i feel overjoyed!

the next important stage would be UAN and of course, WMC in netherlands. i’m going to live my dreams. train to be an artiste. songwriter. learn everthing i can with UAN. and of course, experience europe at the WMC! gonna work hard for these. my beloved clarinet. how i wish i could share my joy!

ok, running ended up as cycling. god knows why. and the cycling was bad cos i didn’t sweat much! wasn’t much of a workout! i’ll be more hardworking at tmr morning’s soccer game. i’d better! and i still can’t get that job! argh.

meeting mr badrul tmr. hopefully the meeting goes fine. hope to earn some money for survival first. it sure ain’t good to be poor. but well, at least i have my dignity which coincidentally isn’t worth much. haha.

nusws dnd was real fun! free flow housepour man! how great! but then again, i don’t really drink, so what’s the point? haha. well, it was still great. surprisingly, after being ‘not there’ for 1 semester, the people there are still very friendly towards me. especially my section! i feel so happy to be back with them again. well, the actual dnd wasn’t THAT fun cos of some loser puking all over the place and crying over this pretty girl from my section (and yes, she happened to be there). the games weren’t really that fun, but at least the organising committee put in effort to cook up those games. anyway, the real fun was getting together with my section mates and the other band mates. i think i kinda gave them a shock cos most of them have never seen me in my new outlook.

played ‘heart attack’ with 11 other people. damn fun. there’s this girl (oh no, i forgot her name) who’ll just aim to whack only my hand whenever she wins the heart attack! argh. got it like 3 times from her. such luck! didn’t drink much; only downed a cranberry vodka and a tequilla shot. wasn’t drunk! but the funniest part of it all is that though i wasn’t drunk, i had a hangover. still a little groggy now. this IS weird. oh, oh, i’m late. better run. going running now. gotta train for IPPT (aim for that $400).

wow, the thought of going to Germany for WMC never crossed my mind! it’ll almost be like a dream come true for me! but right now i have no idea how much i wish to go. it’s gonna cost a bomb, and i ain’t have no money man! ok, it’s 2 months away. let’s see if i can raise the sum by myself. $1200 at least! food and accomodation covered at $990, but i should have some money for shopping, right? get something memorable as memento. i wanna go to germany! i wanna go to WMC! my dream as a clarinetist! perhaps this time round i’ll be able to go. ok, that’s almost $2000 i need to earn. all in 2 months. i’ll do it.

bored to tears! and disconnected from the world too! my hp line’s been cut! argh. gotta go foot the damn bill later. shall be connected again by tmr. meanwhile i shall see which kind soul can be bothered to come save me from this madness by giving me a call.

the job market IS bad. i can’t find any suitable job in the papers man! all the admin stuff isn’t suitable cos they’re mostly full-time. factory admin stuff are bad cos they’re located in some obscure corner of singapore; i didn’t even know some of these places existed…. well, hope i’d secure my tutoring job. really hope to teach clarinet! hopefully the schools will give me a good contract. i started with a $35/hour price tag; hope to maintain it.

meanwhile, i’d better find something to do before i seriously die of boredom.

2 appointments cancelled! 2 days straight! argh. nothing to look forward to tomorrow. maybe i should finally write a new song. a few new songs. if only i can find some inspiration! my skills are rusty. argh. shouldn’t waste my time now. gotta find a damn job!

alright man, coach carter is good shit! damn good movie. very motivating, very touching, very exciting man! the matches are incredible. so is the number of coach carter’s sisters. haha….
new life, new possibilities! put the past behind, now it’s time for some real fun and serious plans. gotta have that $500 man! gotta earn it fast. gotta get that first clarinet student and gotta get that playing sorted out! time to go back to NUSWS and have a good time. i miss those people! all the fun i had with the section during the band camp. i’m back. fresh. and all set to improve my clarinet skills. diploma, here i come! but first, gotta clear that irritating grade 6 theory paper…. about time i did too.
argh. one fortnight? oh well, maybe it’s a sign. maybe it’s a hint. oh well, whatever the case, i’m gonna enjoy my singlehood while it lasts! feel so happy these days. i should live my life like this! yup, that’s what i’m gonna do. great

the visit to UAN is an enriching one! i learnt so many things about the entertainment industry. so many things UAN can do for its artistes! i’ve never thought i could explore my talents farther and now it seems that i could do just that! song writing, producing, sound engineering, theatre, screen acting, performing arts! it has always been my favourite field. never thought i’d find something like that in UAN! now for the only small obstacle……

i really do hope josh and i can join UAN together. explore our passion for music together. and he can explore his acting! it’ll be a dream come true for him if he can finally reach the stage and perform. that’s his passion. performing. and i’ll be so happy if he can sing my songs and make them famous! sell my songs to the entertainment industry. hear some famous guy singing them! maybe even myself, but singing ain’t exactly my first love. haha. MUSIC! i love music. i wanna learn so much more about music! that’ll be such a bonus! oh my. opportunity of a lifetime? i’ll not let go of that thought.

speedy gonzales strikes again! yeah! this time it’s 2 goals! 1 less than that can can tap in day. haha. i’m proud of my second goal! better not be so thick-skinned. haha.

i’m the cameraman again today! the other day i already took 100+ photos. fuah. this time i hope the phototaking will be much faster. i’m hoping my mum’s business will flourish! oh ya, dinner tonight at aunt’s place with the family. celebrating mother’s day. shall buy a present for mum! will go look later. oops, gotta rush. meeting mary ann. performing arts orientation! hope i get to learn new things

since when did i become so shy? sigh.