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i’m out of steam man. after all that exercise, that is. soccer was ultra productive. run here and there, pass the ball around, try out my shots from the flank, get sandwiched by two idiots who obviously tried to remove my left knee from its original position, get sunburnt…. so terrible. now i’m limping cos of that ‘accident’. hurt my knee. walking fast is not possible at the moment. at least i can still move about. just that i’m not half as fast with my bad leg.

bbq was good man! the food was fantastic. joshua tan’s a great chef. his potato salad is heavenly. and he introduced a student to me! i’m going to teach clarinet soon! i’m so happy. meanwhile, i’d have to brush up on my playing. getting a little rusty!

didn’t manage much sleep this morning (ya, this morning, cos of night cycling…. see post below), didn’t manage to do much today. the highlight of the day was the viewing of Singapore Art Museum and making nice paper cuts for display. best thing that happened today? to shop with josh for his office wear; he bought a wallet which is exactly the same as the one he currently has. my god. it is seriously EXACTLY the same. THAT was funny. cos we didn’t find out till he was switching stuff over to the new ‘old’ wallet. we must’ve laughed for a minute man. soccer tomorrow morning. will play my best!

hmmmm…. what approach should i take for the invitation for the movie? argh. some inspiration? someone? spongebob?

wow. we didn’t have any idea where we wanted to go, so we went to get food first: prata at chinatown! after some shiok prata, that was it! the cycling was damn shiok man. let’s see…. i left home at 11pm. i was back home at 5:30am. WHOA. hmmm…. we went to esplanade to check out the view, then the next thing i remember is that we decided to cycle all the way to east coast park! oh yeah. the way there wasn’t as bad as the way back (cos we were dead beat when we started our journey back home!)…. i went on a crazy photo-taking spree along the way. we must be crazy! haha. but it was really fun. considering we didn’t have to cycle THAT much (all the long routes…. courtesy of mr joshua wee), we really had a lot of fun along the way! i love this feeling. i love night cycling! too bad josh’s gonna be busy from next week onwards…. but it’s good news that he’s busy, cos he’s got himself a job! so happy for him. finally a way out!

WHOA. really dead beat. i think i’d better get some rest/sleep/concussion/coma.

yeah! it’s been so long since i went night cycling! so happy! woohoo! this is crazy! let me see let me see…… where should we cycle to? how about esplanade? seems near. sheare’s bridge for the near death adrenaline rush again? seems crazy. geylang tau huay? quite far. chinatown? too near. argh. let me think let me think. spoilt for choice or simply too indecisive to decide? haha. let me see let me see…… heck. go on a photo taking spree. haha. k700i rocks! i love my k700i!

watch The Interpreter! it’s damn good! superb story, superb acting by sean penn and nicole kidman. what a bonus to have watched it when it’s cheap! haha. movies make me hyper. somehow. haha.

feel much happier these days. do not wish to think about the past anymore! it’s been a difficult period to struggle through, but somehow i had to go through it. it’s the only way to make me stronger, to learn how to live without her. now that the relationship’s way over, and i’ve decided that it’s to the point of no return, it’s really time to let go. i’ve never really been strong, and i never had a very strong personality; it’s about time i grew stronger! the past holds nothing but memories. the future holds nothing but possibilities. shouldn’t we look to the future instead of just holding on to the impossible past?

best line today: what do u do if u can’t sleep? you stay awake. brrrrr…. cold joke….

erm, no, social work isn’t the nightmare. the social work exam paper is. anyway, the hellish exam packed days are over. one more paper to go! haha. will be done next wednesday. i wonder how i survived these few days……

bought a new bag! about time i done it anyway. this new bag i have is HUGE. and the most important thing is i like it. haha. about time i stopped buying stuff! all the money i earned from work gone! oh no. nevermind. holidays are coming. time to earn much more money. haha. i love holidays! 3 months! shiok me no die.

yes. that’s how bad the EL2102 paper is. a 30-mark killer as the first question really wraps up how sick the paper can be. argh. but at least the rest of the paper isn’t that bad. careless mistake cost me quite a few marks! i really ought to be more careful! this is bad. philosophy paper wasn’t of any consolation. sucky day. could hardly concentrate! somehow i keep waking up last night. must have been at least 4 times? i hardly got any real sleep! i hate this man. tmr’s social work paper. hope i’d be able to get something in my head tonight.

dreamt about someone asking me out last night. and i dreamt that i was late. strange dreams. strange reality! spongebob. the pineapple under the sea is getting to me. i have no idea whether it’s a nice dream or a nightmare. let’s hope it’s a good one.

let me have a go at the papers tmr! let me get them over and done with! argh! i still hate exams. who loves exams anyway?

sheesh. try to sleep. now. argh.

english language paper and philosophy paper on monday, social work paper on tuesday and another english language paper the following wednesday. after that, i’m finally free! haha. 3 months worth of holidays. looking forward to the holidays man. meanwhile, i’ve gotta mug hard for my 4 other papers. the disgoosting paper yesterday shall not hinder my studies! i must pull up my CAP score this sem! gambatte.

don’t cling on to the past anymore. there’s no point in holding on to something that’s not there anymore. we had our chances of saving the relationship, but we blew it. we blew it bad. we have come to a dead end already. reading my blog won’t change anything. there’s no way you can understand me now, because i tried to let you understand me, but you didn’t even try. i gave you my all, but it simply wasn’t enough. please forget me and move on to more important things in your life. don’t waste your time trying to move me. there are much taller and better looking guys out there. move on. please.

there is no point comparing what we have done now for each other now. there is no point trying to prove to anyone that we really cared about each other. there is simply no turning back. because denying me my future is denying me everything. and denying you your present is also denying you everything. we don’t belong together. not anymore. please let me go. and please spare jingying the trouble. i don’t want her to get involved. she’s been so tired because of us. we’re not the only ones having exams. you have your other friends. listen to them. they gave you valuable advice and they will continue to do so.

it’s time to move on.